Lately, I’ve been struggling with depression, so I feel like straight hell. I think it’s being caused by a multitude of things right now: too much stress, anxiety, bad eating habits, lack of exercise, not enough sleep, lack of Vitamin D, no creative free time, the thought of Star Wars sequels, etc. But it’s not the kind of depression that anti-depressant commercials have stereotyped—you know, the sad, gray blob standing under a constant rain cloud, looking like it wants to kill itself.
Yeah, that one. Unlike the sad, gray blob though, I don’t want to stand under a rain cloud or kill myself. Because I have shit to do and a dog to take care of. This kind of depression is aptly named “Walking Depression.” Basically, it means that I still get up in the morning, go to work, post funny pictures on Facebook, eat regular meals, run errands, clean my house, and hang out with friends like it’s no big deal—I just do so with a general sense of unhappiness.
Now, I’m not a mental health care professional, so I couldn’t exactly say, but I have a feeling a lot of people have this same problem. We just don’t ever talk about it. Why? Because other people have told us that this doesn’t count as “depression.” Quite frankly, I think that’s bullshit. Plenty of statistics have shown that millions of people suffer from different types of depression each year (especially people with ovaries because, apparently, God hates us). So why couldn’t that include the people whose depression doesn’t necessarily require medication and therapy?
Some of us just get into a rut, and we feel hopeless until we can get back out. With “Walking Depression,” we only have to admit to ourselves that we are, in fact, depressed. And the only way we can get rid of it is to make some changes in our lives, so that we can get back on track.
Me? I have some little changes that will slowly ease me back to happiness. Of course, I’m not going to do all of these things at once because I don’t want to burn out, but I think they’ll help in combating the causes. I’m trying to eat healthier meals. I’m trying to do yoga for 20-30 minutes before bed. I’m trying to go to bed earlier. I’m trying to get up when I’m supposed to in the morning (rather than sleeping in), so that I can make a decent breakfast and get in a 15-minute treadmill exercise. I’m trying to keep my stress levels at work low by listening to music (which also helps my focus). I’m trying to make more time for the creative and/or entertaining things I love to do.
And, of course, because I like the comedian’s approach to self-treating depression, I continue to use comedy to fight sadness. So here is a GIF story of my struggle with depression…